What am I Doing?

Good question. I don't know.

After deciding to start this journey, I started looking more into the NYC Marathon. I am not going to lie, I almost backed out the first day. Instead of giving up, I started telling people my plan. One thing about me, I always have these grand ideas that I don't usually follow through with...but I have learned that if I tell people, I am more likely to stick to it. The outpouring of support was incredible. I figured that everyone would laugh it off as one of my extravagant ideas. Almost every person told me that not only would they walk with me as I built stamina, they would also come to NYC to cheer me on along with route when it came time. I was very touched by their support, so I dug my heels in and said "let's do it".

My wife's cousin runs in 5Ks, so I reached out to him to tell him my plan. He told me that if this was something I was serious about he would also start training for it and will try to get into the race with me so I wouldn't have to do it alone. He then told me that he had a treadmill that he wanted to get rid of and would bring it to me that weekend. I was very thankful, we live in the north and there is SO MUCH SNOW on the ground and at this rate I would not have been able to start until March or April.

So a little backstory, I am a hypochondriac with the worst case of white coat syndrome (and health OCD) you have ever seen. I have not walked for my health in at least 10 years, and I have not worked out in longer than that. So I had convinced myself that I needed to start as small as possible just to get my body used to moving. The first walk was half a mile at 2.0mph. I didn't even break a sweat, but it is what my anxiety let me do. Afterwards, I was so proud that I did that. I sent a snap of my stats to many of my friends with the caption "I did it! I started somewhere!".

Half a mile may not be that special, but for someone who was lazier than a couch potato, it was huge.

So here we are. I have no idea what I am doing, but I know that I am going to continue pushing through and digging deeper until I figure it out. Maybe I will find myself along the way, too. I would love to take you on this journey with me.

I have set up an Instagram for this journey: @joyfulmiles31 if you want to follow me over there too.

If you have anything you want to know, or see, let me know on the contact page. Until next time #JoyfulJourneyHappyHeart