March Recap

So we are going to do this one a little early because next week I have a very exciting blog coming your way! March went by so fast compared to how slow January and February felt. This month was a lot. Rhiannon was gone to a conference for a week. When she got home we had a family tragedy happen down state. My anxiety has not gotten better, if anything I think it has gotten worse this month.

I mentioned a few weeks ago that I was getting massages to work on my SA trauma. Things were going great with that, until I realized that there were some other feelings and trauma coming up that I was not ready to face just yet. I ended up cancelling my final massage and I am not sure if I am going to finish it or go back. This past week, especially, I have have some of the worst anxiety I have ever experienced. It felt like I was living in a constant state of panic and impending doom. I was afraid to be alone in case something happened. I didn't want to leave the house in case something happened. It finally seems that it is calming down and I am getting better...it really comes back strong at night.

Even though things have been rough this month, we did have some good things happen too.

• I read the book for the Joyful Heart Virtual Book Club, and attended my first virtual book club.

• We had our annual Oscar's party with our friends. I came in 4th on guessing the correct winners.

• I helped out a little at the theatre with auditions and a read through, reminding me how much I love theatre...and how happy I am that I have stepped away.

• I was able to go on several dates with my wife!

• We got to see Rhiannon's brother on his 21st birthday!

Coming up in April:

• I am throwing myself a Law and Order: SVU birthday party where everyone is dressing up as a character from the show

• It is also my dad's birthday month

• One of our closest friends

  is having a baby shower

• It is the NBA Playoffs (hoping to see the Knicks if they come close)

• It is spring, more time for outdoor walks.

Happy Spring, Y'all! #JoyfulJourneyHappyHeart